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[18 Nov 2007|04:16pm] |
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well i figured i would write here and update on my life since its been many months since i have...
Got a puppy rottweiler in september named Brutus who is one of the most adorable fast growing puppy in the world. he's so freakin cute. He's gonna be 5 months this week, when we got him he was 9 weeks and 18ish pounds, now he's almost 5 months and 50 pounds!! damn its crazy. Moved into an apartment in downtown bevtown with the boy and steph and brenden about a month ago or so. working out well. Still going to school, which is still going well, enjoying it. Been hanging out with some good people and having some funs times.
Going to Vermont for thanksgiving with the family and boyfriend, should be fun always is a good time. School's almost done only 20ish or so days left. Need to go visit some of my favs done in framingham, whom i miss terribly.
hmmm what else....life is going, school's going, doing well for a change which is nice. Got a hair cut on friday, new look still, long, love it.
have a cold or something which is kicking my ass and it sucks, think it started as allergies but turned into sickishness....completely lame but oh well, feel some what better even though i still keep breathe out of my nose...phooy
aww how cute Brutus is sleeping on his back near the roommates' door waiting for the kitten they just got last week.
well i think thats about it in a nutshell for now. and i will be sure to update again soon.
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| well hello there |
[12 Jul 2007|10:10pm] |
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since its been about forever and i actually have some time for a change. i decided why not. nothing super going on, sunburn, working everyday day of my life, trying to relax, though that doesnt always happen. my summer isnt exactly summer but im trying to enjoy it as much as i can. i just want to go to the beaaach. hmm what else, i would love a vacation and if anyone would like to give me one i would be super pumped lol.
sadly i havent even had time to be alive. i havent seen anyone in forever but its hard especially when all i do is work and sleep. but hopefully that will change soon.
anywho im tired and i dunno maybe sleep or at least relax for a while which im wayyy to excited for.
till later
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[28 Nov 2006|02:39pm] |
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the last month has been pretty good. mostly consisiting of school and home and not doing much there which works perfectly well with me. Last weekend was good. Went up to Vermont till saturday all i have to say is it was hilarious and dont think ive ever laughed so much and so hard in a long while. My family is crazy haha and i love it. It was kinda weird/different not having thanksgiving at home but whatever it was worth it. Came home and just had a nice relaxing night in with nelson.
I cant believe its already been this long and ive never been so happy as i am now.
So only got 2 and a half weeks left of classes and then im done...i cant believe it. but im sooo looking forward to being home and not being here anymore. I do have some good days but the majority it just sucks and is boring. Though it is going to be very weird living at home....and thats going to be an interesting transition. oh well still have a ton of shit i gotta do between now and then so once thats over with ill be happy. bleh gotta look for a job soon too....really should have been looking already but i dunno where ahhhhh.....whatev itll work out...i hope...
till later :)
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[01 Nov 2006|02:42pm] |
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bleh....thats about all i got right now
too many things to doooooo
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[25 Oct 2006|04:38pm] |
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at this point i am sick of school and im sick of what i cant get done. i dont udnerstand why but it sucks and is aggrivating as hell. im doing ok but really non of my classes really count considering im not even in the major and never will be. lame lame lame
thinking about withdrawing from one of my classes, probably a good idea that way i can really focus on doing good and not have that bring down my gpa. i was planning on waiting till after the midterm but i have to do this next week and theres no way my prof will be able to grade the papers so forget it.
why cant i be a good student for once?
fucking school
asdjosdoifisaofjasfdfgdnk!
what also doenst help is the fact that this week is going by slow as hell ahhhh!!1
can i please just go home now?
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[24 Oct 2006|03:43pm] |
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the last month has been pretty good my birthday was super fun went to boston with some of my bestests. went to Kings where Lynne was working and she waited on us and that was fun...mmm good food. Then we went over to purple shamrock till close and that also was a fabulous time. so my birthday was pretty good. though i have yet to take advantage of the whole being 21 thing since ive only gone out twice on thursday and friday of my bday and thats it lol but whatever ive got plenty of time. hmm what else went shopping and found some wonderful clothes very pumped. other than that life is good and and very happy.
school is beginning to be a pain in my ass and im sick of it. i jsut want to be done but ive decided and am going to talk to my advisor tomorrow about leaving here and im probbaly gonna be transfering to north shore for at least next semester. so we'll see how that all works out. oh well i guess i should be getting to work and hopefully get a bunch of shit done so i dont go killing myself come this weekend.
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| "See ya lata bitches!!!" |
[14 Sep 2006|11:11am] |
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Well I think it's been long enough, rather I've jsut been super lazy.
Had two jobs at one point. Did landscaping all summer for my dad and then worked at dunks in beverly farms for about a month and half...that pretty much killed me. but hey it worked for the short time I did it.
Hmm...In August there were many things that went on. Went to Vermont with my parents and Sara and I brought Kate along and she brought her friend Jess. I drove up with us 4 and it was a pretty good time....quite hilarious. It was a fun time, went for a long walk, we found the "hippi" trail apparently and it was just so nice to be up there. I love it, hmm well we went to my cousins bar, a flea market and somehoe got lost in New York in the mountiains which we had no idea until we saw the welcome to Vermont sign lol. From there that Sunday me and kate drove up to Montreal to visit Jess. It was such an amazing time and I've missed her oh so much. The first night rather after we got there at like 1130...we went out I got pretty shitfaced and later on smoked. It was a good night over all. Pretty much went out everynight went shopping, walked allllllll over the city saw some pretty interesting things, and people. One of the nights when we were walking back to Jess's apartment at like...230 or 3 in the morning after a night of sangria and playing pool, we saw some guy on a bike get hit by a car...that was kinda scary we kinda didnt know what to do but there was a cop like literaly behind that accident. We continue out walk and this cracked out women comes up to us, asks us if we speak english and continues to say she got stabbed a couple days ago, showing us the stabs that by the way were not covered and scabbing? yea so she wanted money for her "pills" aka meth or some shit lol. ooh it was funny.
Hmmm we met some of Jess's friends and hung out with them one of the nights which was pretty sweet.
Ride home was amazing hahahahaha wont even get into that...im sure you can probably if you think really hard it may make sense. lol
ANYWAY....Came home mid week...thats all i remmeber ha
Nothing exciting other than just enjoying the rest of my summer, hung out and now i'm at school....got my car on campus this year...and i need a job....
So far its been ok...nothing too great the roommate is good we get along. Classes.....tons of homework. lots and lots and lots of reading. and so far I'm doing ok with it all.
Last weekend went home, Kyle and Erin got married....that was fun and so crazy. I'm so happy for them. And it was good to see a bunch of people I havent seen in forever as well. : )
this weekend going home again...this time got a doctors appointment...oooh goody. then i think im going up to NH with nelson which should be fun.
hmm ok I'm done...
Till later
ps. BIRTHDAY IN A MONTH!!!! WOOOOO
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should probably update this thing at some point...probably after this weekend when i got a whole shit load of things to talk about.....lol
but for now i must sleep....damn up wayyyy to late
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[15 Jul 2006|04:27pm] |
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[02 Jun 2006|12:26pm] |
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So i dont know whats going on anymore. my moms on my back about a fucking job....which i have been looking for along with waiting to hear from one and my head is crazy spinning. I dont know what to do. im confused as hell and everything i swear is going backwards for me. yes i have had an awsome few weeks already but im still stuck. gahhhhhhhh
well anyway i went to framingham on sunday for the graduation, got wicked sunburned but had an awsome time. stayed at chelseas for the night and all day monday which was pretty cool and got to see pretty much everyone which was also awsome. and i miss you guys soooo muchhh.
umm yesterady spent the day down at lynch park chillen and seeing all kinds of people i havent seen in forever. very cool tried to chase the storm but that didnt work umm yyeeeaa good day and night overall
worked for my dad this week spent 2 days out in the sun and yesterday being out, still very tired and somewhat burned but turning into a nice tan yay
man i want to sleep ive been up before noon for the past week and thats not like me at all oooh well i guess
till later
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[25 May 2006|04:13pm] |
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well ive been home for almost a week and summer is here its nice to be home but it feels like i should be goin back to school soon even though im not.
last weekend was crazzzy and wicked fun jsut how i wanted to spent my first weekend home. and so far this summer is looking pretty good :)
ive had a crazy week along with a relaxing one as well. Been applying to jobs and today i had an interview which went pretty good. hopefully ill get cuz i need money!!!
tomorrow ill be working with my dad so ill be getting something at least which is good.
hmm what else nothing else too exciting going on yet.
now im gonna go and chill and enjoy this awsome weather...finally...yay
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[15 May 2006|08:58pm] |
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It is now the last week of school....and i really dont know what to think about that. I'm ready for summer but not ready to actually leave here. this past weekend i had so much fun. and the weird thing in the last few weeks ive hung out with so many different people who i jsut met, and it kinda makes me sad since its the end of the semester. now that its here im not ready to leave. Megham left today :( and stephanie and michele the end of the week but they're graduating. ooh well
its only monday....no one is gonna be around for most of the week and im already sick of studying....wicked cool and speaking of which i should be studying....but yet i am not...what a surprise.
still gotta pack TONS of shit and i already know im probably gonna have at least 2 trips home oh well pakcing just sucks hard core.
wow home for the summer in 4 days....cant believe how fast it all went by
hmm im stuck in between!!!!!!!!!
gotta love how beverly is almsot underwater great thing to go home to....all i want is the sun to come outtttt
yyea probably would be a good idea to stop procrastinating....maybe?
till later
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[12 May 2006|07:18pm] |
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Well it is now the of the semster....and i cant believe it. this went by way to fast and im ready for it to be over but then again im not at all. i still need a job and just dont know what to do with myself. Now I got 3 finals and 1 take home and im done on friday...as always but then again i can still see the people who are also here till then.
I've come to realize you find out quickly who your real friends are. no one seems to get it which is just fucking cool. and have the friends who all of a sudden disappear. GOD i fucking hate this. You definately notice the people who have changed and the people who havent, and that everything seems to revolve around them and thats it and cant even leave time to hang out. dont get it at all.
things always seem to be going good then all of a sudden, its gone, things and people are different and you wonder what has happened. this summer is much needed but also gonna be weird. im not ready to spend 3 months at home and working. and all i want right now is a fucking beer. last i checked that wasnt too much to ask but hey i gues it is. along with, oh i dunno, hang out...
anyways these last few weeks have had their ups and downs and i have no idea where it is going next. unfortunately maybe i do i jsut dont want to realize it.
been packing my shit up....way to sad, i just wish this rain would go away!!!
sun and warm needs to be here now! and then maybe id feel somewhat better
ok study time or something eww i hate finals
sorry for the bitchin...
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[25 Apr 2006|04:07pm] |
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last weekend was fun. drank, smoked, drank and drank and yea thats what it consisted of. not complainin by any means. from friday to about sunday afternoon...fucked up and yes it was nice. lol it was a very good weekend. friday hung out with kate got drunk sat hung out with a bunch of different people throughout the day but sat night went to burlington for kiri's bday and got trashed and i didnt sleep...maybe like 3 hours who knows but yea i had fun and miss hanging out with her and andrea its so sad that i barely see them now. but yea hopefully that will change.
now back at school dont wanna be here and dont wanna even do anything. still somewaht recoverin from the lack of sleep haha but its all goood well worth it. lol
hmm well this week jsut needs to be over already...yes i know its only tuesday but how i wish it was always the weekend. but soon it will be summer and i cant wait...the only thing im not looking forward to is the fact of me workin...hmm yyea thats gonna be somethin im gonna have to do/need to get. FUCK
oh well i still got a few weeks....:/
now lets see if i can get myself to get some homework done ahead of time....that would be a first/nice for a change....
peace out
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[20 Apr 2006|07:55pm] |
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I had a really good day today it was nice from the start and it only got better :) hahahaha
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[17 Apr 2006|01:39pm] |
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dont you love it when everyone seems to be on your back about anything and everything? when you already know that your a screw up and feel like you fail at everything? its fuckin great....
fuck
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[15 Apr 2006|01:07pm] |
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Sooooo....im seein Dane Cook tonight....FUCKIN RIGHT!!
but i feel like shit....awsome :/
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| Good Weekend |
[27 Mar 2006|06:30pm] |
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i had a wicked good weekend and am pretty sad it had to end. hung out with steph sat and then later on with kate for the rest of the night. started drinkin at 6 till 10 or something then ended up goin to sidelines. and from there it just got better.:D sooo now im can only hope more good things are gonna happen. only time will tell
now i got another week to get through hopefully it will go by fast
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[22 Mar 2006|07:50pm] |
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Found this song today and i really like it....just thinking about it makes sense and makes ya think of everything and what needs to be done.
"Powerless (Say What You Want)"
~Nelly Furtado
Paint my face in your magazines
Make it look whiter than it seems
Paint me over with your dreams
Shove away my ethnicity
Burn every notion that I may have a flame inside to fight
And say just what is on my mind
Without offending your might
Cuz this life is too short to live it just for you
But when you feel so powerless what are you gonna do
So say what you want
Say what you want
I saw her face outside today
Weatherworn, looking all the rage
They took her passion and her gaze and made a poster
Now it’s moccasins we sport
We take the culture and contort
Perhaps only to distort what we are hiding
Cuz this life is too short to live it just for you
But when you feel so powerless what are you gonna do
But say what you want
Say what you want
Hey you, the one, the one outside, are you ever gonna get in, get in
Hey you, the one that don’t fit in, how ya, how ya gonna get in
Hey you, the one outside, are you ever gonna get in with your
Broken teeth, broken jaw, broken mojo
Yeah, this life is too short to live it just for you
But when you feel so powerless, what are you gonna do
Cuz this life is too short to live it just for you
But when you feel so powerless, what are you gonna do
Cuz this life is too short to live it just for you
But when you feel so powerless, what are you gonna do
Say what you want, say what you want, say, say, say
Cuz this life is too short,
just for you
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| "Wish there was something now I could say or do" |
[22 Mar 2006|12:09am] |
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Spring break...
it was good had some fun times randomly went to connecticut to see the "holyland"...to put it this way think of a golf course and the tiny buildings lol it was a very interesting and amusing trip. hung out with kate a ton which was pretty awsome. ive missed her so much and it was soo good to jsut relax. been driving my car all over the place lol. thursday went and visited steph at school that was fun and brought her home for her spring break...which i wish i was still on. friday hung out with sara and her friends...oh so random but fun and hilarious. saturday, went to bridgwater got fuckin trashed which was well needed.
from there though it just went all downhill... : /
for the last couple days ive been soo out of it. been in my own little mind and cant concentrate. dont wanna be here and all i want is not to be at school anymore...granted i only have 2ish months left but im so sick of it. im always bored and its just ridiculous, i rarely have anything to look forward to other than weekends when i usually go home cuz i cant stand it.
ive been doing a lot of thinking for a long time and i cant help it. ive wanted to say so many things...yet i didnt/dont. it sucks...i feel miserable still and i cant get over it. i tried so hard for things to go right and it didnt i still dont get it cuz it doenst make sense. it worked before but what triggered it after? there was a lot of things that i wish were different and came out different, but obviously ive been waiting and wondering for too long and keep trying to get past it...not working...why do i do this to myself. i never did anything to stop it, to make it not work but...i dunno right now my mind has been going in circles and cant get it to stop. ive also felt like shit since yesterday and...i dunno i need to not be like this...i hate it yet i always come back to this...why? i dont know but i do.
knowing the feeling that you keep fucking up your life sucks, cuz thats thet way i feel right now, nothing i try to do goes right and then more shit happens and im done for and end up sitting here jsut thinking, thats all ive been doing since the weekend, every second of the day...it fuckin sucks.
all i want is for the week to be over and wish i could be back to myself again...too much too ask?
i just wish i knew what to do and not let this bother me after so long of trying to understand.....but theres so many little things i miss i my life and its killing me inside......
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